Hello you lovely people!
To be honest, I have no idea where this post is going – but honesty seems like a good compass. We are two weeks into the New Year, and you might have noticed (though I would be surprised if you really did), that I haven’t been posting a wrap-up of 2017, or my favourite books of the last year, or my plans for the new one. Most of all, this is because I simply didn’t have the time to even think about reflecting anything in December, but also because I didn’t have the conviction that anyone would have cared. There, I said it. I’m not complaining about you, my treasured readers, or any shortage of interaction or visibility or some other excuse. I just felt like posting would be shouting into the void.
The truth is, I don’t care as much about my blog as I used to. It pains me to say it, but how can I expect others to spend time reading my posts when I can’t put aside the time to properly craft them? There are lots of bloggers creating content who are likely enough busier than me, so I don’t want to blame the fact that my life has gotten a little out of hand lately, but it’s the reason for my longer silences here. My life feels like the photo above, a blurred idea of something, but not concrete enough to be something. I’m in one of those in-between-life-phases-periods where big decisions are to be made and changing priorities demand to be put in a new order. And as it is something I simply do for the sake of it, this blog had to step aside. It just didn’t bring me enough joy anymore to justify spending so much time on it, and now here we are.
As probably most bloggers at some point, I thought about abandoning blogging altogether but couldn’t bring myself to do it. On the other hand, I don’t want to half-ass it either because that’s not fair to anyone. So what to do? I want to make blogging feel more like a choice and less like a chore. I want to structure my creative outlets better (that being this blog, Bookstagram and smaller projects), but it’s difficult in a time where my schedules literally change with every passing week. I want to keep writing in English in German, even if that is tough on some of you guys (I’m really sorry if you’re annoyed but that’s just how my weird brain works). I want to engage more with you and finally get back to reading other blogs regularly. And I want to post more on my instagram as well, so I can link it better with this blog. Maybe I don’t really have a bullet-proof plan for how to achieve all this (as Phoebe said, I don’t even have a pla), but I’m ready to try.
To wrap up this rambling of thoughts, I wanted to thank you for sticking with me. Whatever reason you have for reading this, I am grateful that you are and hope to do all of you more justice by creating a space that makes spending your valuable time on me a little bit worthwhile.
I love you all,